I know this isn't a significant week or anything, but I just wanted to point out how things are flying by so quickly. Of course, everyone told me that it would fly by, but I guess it just felt like it was dragging at first. I have been busy basically doing nothing lately. Every weekend I think I'm going to work on this baby room but it just doesn't get done. I guess I could start by putting all the Christmas stuff up. Ok, so I guess I'm just being lazy, but I just can't seem to find the energy. I think secretly I'm waiting to find out what it is and then I'll just get started. Who knows? I'm hard to figure out sometimes!! I am so excited that in three short weeks (feels like forever) we will know the sex of this baby. I can't wait to give the baby a name and be able to say he or she. I know it's silly, but I think knowing the sex will make the bonding a lot stronger. So far out of the 4 other people who I know are pregnant, 3 of them are having girls. I'm still waiting for one to find out. So, maybe my chances for a girl are good, maybe it's girl year. Either way, I just want the baby to be healthy, but it's ok to dream, right? I will be totally happy with whatever God blesses us with.
So lately I've been worrying/stressing about silly things. If you know me well, you know how much I love kids and how I've been around them FOREVER. So you would think simple things would not bother me. For instance, one day on the way home from eating dinner, I started worrying about whether or not I'll know how to give my baby a bath. Now is that not ridiculous?? I know how to give a baby a bath! And other things like, do you swaddle? Do you not swaddle? Why so much controversy on swaddling? Also, everytime I start to dial a phone number for a daycare, I start crying. I'm not sure if this hormones or what, but I'm starting to feel insane! I know daycare is a big deal, but why should I cry before I even dial the number? Ok, it gets worse. Yesterday I was depressed because I didn't know what I wanted to eat for lunch! I didn't want to make the decision. Did I want go out or stay in? I feel like I'm not in control of my own mind. Would someone please leave me comments and let me know if this is normal or if I've just lost my mind!
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Oh, I can answer the lunch question: Go out and eat!! I didn't start cooking again until around 20 weeks and it wasn't until after that, I picked out her bedding and crib. That was all I have done still to this day!! So you are just fine, the nursery will come!! I hope everything else is going great!!
Awe Ashley! Take a deep breath. Repeat these words after me..."If Jana can do it, I KNOW I can do it"! You need to relax. Everything will be fine and all fall into place. Noah's room is still not finished the way I'd like it. Bath time is too mcuh fun to be worried about, and all you will do is wet a rag and wipe him down for a while. And you will not be the one to decide to swaddle or not...she (hehe) will! Noah got swaddled only in the hospital. After that he was done, and I wasn't going to fight it. And do I need to just quit my job and keep her. It's just hard thinking about leaving your child in a very unknown place. Hang in there, ask questions, and go check everything out. BUT..the hormones have definately got you with the lunch issue. It's a good thing you are pregnant, I would be sending you a 1-hour margarita. That baby will be making most of the decisions for you, so relax and enjoy this beautiful ride, it will be over soon and that's what you need to save all those tears for. Love you!
It's nice to read that you're getting hormonal over silly things too. Last week, I cried to the point John thought something was wrong with me because of Desperate Housewives. Then, I made him sit with me on the couch because I didn't want to be by myself. I've found that if I don't keep myself (and my mind) relatively busy, that's when I freak out for no reason. We have done practically nothing for the nursery though, just working on transitioning it from an office. There's still too much stuff in there though. I'm with you. As soon as I know the sex, I'll be ready to decorate, and you can bet the room will get cleaned out fast then.
Good luck tomorrow, and have fun! I'm so jealous, but I'll be there soon enough. :-)
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